Envious of Ice (Ballet) Dancers

I think I'll always be jealous that I didn't learn how to ice skate from a young age. That I don't have years of experience under my belt. I mean we went ice skating with friends for birthdays sometimes, and I could balance, I just never learned how to stop and would run into walls or other people. I think of starting all the time. I’ll fantasize about songs and routines, couples dances I could do with that special person, being able to do twirls and jumps and tricks, and of finding a place that will do lessons for a reasonable price. Still for some reason I feel embarrassed, like I'm too old to learn, which I know isn't true, but in a way it is. Sometimes I think I should've stayed in ballet, I was good at it, and it felt so natural to me...maybe now I would feel happier, more accomplished.

I’ve always loved ballet and ice skating, especially couples skating. It's a beautiful and romantic art form, and those who can skate are so extremely talented. Whenever I'm sick or not feeling the greatest I watch figure skating and couples skates from the Olympics or small competitions on YouTube. There's something about the moves and music, the chemistry and trust, that makes me feel light and calm. I can become distracted and entranced and forget about what I'm doing for a little bit. I'm not sure where I got this love and interest from (probably OG Barbie movies), no one in my family does it...but I want to do it so badly. I just don't know where to go or if I would be any good. I think I just need to take charge. Push my feelings of embarrassment and nervousness (anxiety in how much it'll cost) aside. Maybe I could be really good, but I won't know until I try...